Every so often I take a peek at my website. And I'm humbled by the faithful visits regardless of my long sabatical. I've been dreading this moment. The moment when I share honestly about why I ducked out of sight for almost a year.
Here goes . . .
My marriage ended.
It wasn't something I saw coming. Not something I would have ever wanted. But it is over just the same.
I've prayed about how to tell you. Cringed, cried, and cowered at the thought of it. Today, that all ends. (Though not the praying.)
What about the website? Up until recently, I didn't know what would become of it or even me. Then the thought of a dear friend who lost her battle with cancer last May, cleared the way.
Her name is Robbie Sue, and just a year before her death, her husband died.
She never did get around to cleaning out her husband's closet. Before her illness overtook her body, she said it was too overwhelming and she wasn't ready.
This is how I feel about my website. Years of stories, every one of them true. They are an honest account of how I felt about marriage and family and life as I knew it for 18 years. I still believe in marriage. I still believe in family. Grief come in waves. Some gentle. Some leave me gasping for breath. And yet I can honestly tell you, I'm genuinely happy to be alive each day.
There will come a time when I will have to sort through it all. Keep some things. Store others away in the privacy of my own heart. But for now, let's just say it's a closet I'm not ready to sort through, which means many (most) of my blogs are written by "married" me.
Incidently, the message on forgiveness has changed. I've changed. The unfailing love of God remains the same. So until I can replace the mesage provided at the top of this page with the new one, just know that it's been transformed. New message will post in February.
So, I'm coming back. Slowly, but surely. To God be the glory.
Happy New Year!
"Behold I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert." Isaiah 43:19
Published on Tuesday, December 31, 2013 @ 2:18 PM CDT