I'm working on a non-fiction project called Bohemian Forgiveness: 5 Unconventional Paths to Forgiving What You'll Never Forget.
I have a literary agent. And submissions to publishing houses are underway. Meanwhile, a graphic designer is creating a collateral design that will feature 25 excerpts. This is a sample!
I'll keep you posted as we progress!
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I began to heal on the inside when I decided to set aside time each day to sit quietly before God. I didn't read or study my bible during this time. Initially I didn't say much. I just sat in my bedroom closet after inviting the presence of God to transform me.
After a while, I got angry. So I told God I was angry. With others. With Him. Later, I felt sad. So I told God how sad I was. Sad that I'd been hurt so badly. Sad that He allowed it. With every confession I became increasingly aware of how comforting He is.
I began to look forward to my time with God. I needed it. I sensed that I was changing on the inside, though I couldn't identify how, which freed me from trying to control the process. And then one day, in the presence of Unfailing, Unconditional Love, my eyes were opened to my destructive re-actions to abuse and betrayal. How I treated the ones I loved the most. How I treated myself. I didn't like what I saw. So I did what I'd been doing all along. I told God. I confessed. Then I asked Him to forgive me. And He did.
Not long afterwards, God prompted me to forgive the people who'd hurt me. For the first time in my life, I had it to give. It felt good to forgive. Healing and forgiveness is an "inside job." I think too many people begin on the outside. That never worked for me. Pointing a finger, telling everyone but God, what so and so did to hurt me--how I feel about them. It only muddied the water in my own heart. A heart that held a well of pain as deep as betrayal and wide as abuse.
God sent His Son to save us AND heal us. Jesus is very interested in healing us on the inside. In Matthew 23:26, He tells us to "first cleanse the inside of the cup and dish, that the outside of them may be made clean." And that's how it worked (and still works) for me.
Counselors are wonderful. I went to counseling, too. But be mindful not to join the drowning--who only describe the water--over, and over, and over.
When we commit to spending time alone with God and invite His presence into our pain, Living Water pours into the muddied waters of our hearts. Over time, the water becomes clear and we see our own need for forgiveness. That's how we heal from the inside. And that's how we forgive from our hearts.
Are you ready to begin? All you have to do in the beginning is show up. From there, simply respond to Him. You can't screw it up.
Published on Friday, August 19, 2011 @ 11:43 AM CDT