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Part 2: Let Death Seize Them
Greetings! Scroll down for Part 1 if your missed it. When we left off, I asked a question to help you identify the subtle desire for revenge. The subtle desire for revenge will seek expression. Left unidentified it is likley to gain momentum and cause a lot of damage when you least expect it. If you read my blog regualary, you do not deserve the destruction darkness is hell-bent on bringing given half a chance. (I imagine you've been through enough already--or you wouldn't be here.)
So what do we do with this desire--that so rarely disapates in a single-prayer filled bound? How can we submit [it] to Light? The process begins with validation. God knows what's happened to you, and He cares. This Advent season when our hearts our focused on the coming Christ, let's welcome His presence in the desires of our souls, too. Let's be assured that if in the midst of multi-colored lights we can only see RED, He will meet us right where we are. He will love us away from the path of destruction and toward one that is life-giving. If only we will communicate with Him the way King David did in a story found in the Old Testament:
Psalm 55: King David is sand-bagged by his closest friend.
King David to God: For it is not an enemy who reproaches me; then I could bear it. Nor is it one who hates me who has exalted himself against me; then I could hide from him. But it was you, a man my equal, my companion and my acquaintacne. We took sweet counsel together and walked to the house of God in the throng.
Next, he tells God how he really feels.
"Let death seize them; let them go down alive into hell for wickedness is in their dwellings and among them" (Psalm 55:15)
Who knew the angry retort "go to hell" originated with a man desribed in Sacred Scripture as "a man after God's own heart." Oh, to be human after-all. Turns out, this was not his only desire.
"As for me, I will call upon God, and the Lord shall save me. Evening morning and at noon I will pray, and cry aloud, and He shall hear my voice. He has redeemed my soul in peace from the battle that was against me, for there were many against me."
What I love so much about this is that he opened his heart to God. And not everything in there was clean and pretty. It hurts to be betrayed by someone with whom we share no personal attachments, but a close friend is another matter altogether. It's particulary painful--painful enough to spark a desire for revenge.
King David offered it all. He cried out in the evening, morning, and at noon. He had mulitple conversations with God about the betrayal he'd endured. And he confessed even the darkest of his soul's desires. (Clearly, passions are high when you ask God to burn your enemies alive.) He didn't merely want them to die. He wanted them to suffer intense pain unto their last breath.
What can we learn from this? Even for a king, forgiveness takes time. And now's as good a time as any to say, time takes time, too.
"Although the psalmist requests some due punishment for his enemies his tone is one of deference to God, who is always just." This is a winning combination that's served me well over the years.
(ref. CCC 271, 1991)
I encourage you to mediate on this concept. Talk to God. Journal your thoughts if you're uncomfortable speaking directly to Him. I'll be back with a personal story next week. In 2013, when my marriage went up in flames, I experienced a seemingly endless stretch of time where the desire for revenge burned so hot it's a wonder I wasn't reduced to volcanic ash. Christ met me there and then led me back to wholeness. He didn't scold me for intense emotion. Grab your journal and let it out, sister!
Meet me back here next week.
We get better together!
Published on Thursday, December 6, 2018 @ 10:00 AM CDT