Please pardon the disappearance as Hannah and I prepare to head over to Mission EDIFY.
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand" (Isaiah 41:10 NKJV).
Yesterday morning (Valentines Day) I woke up thinking about how far I've come by the Lord's righteous right hand. In the beginning, I was so broken that I imagined the abused girl in me simply sitting in Jesus' lap. The first three years of healing were rough. I didn't understand why it was such a slow process.
Today, I understand. Are you familiar with the phrase: "My whole life flashed before my eyes." Well, Valentines morning went something like that, only it was my healing process that flashed before my eyes: Initially, I saw an abused girl; safe in my Savior's lap. Next, I saw myself as a toddler, hanging on to His leg as He walked. Eventually, I stood on my own two feet, but remained hidden behind my Heavenly Father; every so often I peered from behind him. Over time I learned to walk and finally run, but not without stumbling; not without His comfort and care.
At last, I'm a grown woman, walking down the isle. My heavenly Father walks arm and arm with me. I'm a beautiful bride, dressed in the wedding gown I've only ever imagined wearing. He's proud of me. His honor feels like sunshine on my face. And in that moment, in my spirit I heard Him say, "And when you are old and silver, ever so much more than twenty, you will still be my little girl."
It takes time to grow in Christ. He didn't reveal images of all the tears, all the fits I threw; the times I initially reached for a drink instead of Him. From the beginning, He saw a broken-down baby from a broken-down home, who needed Love to grow to be a woman free from her past.
At 8:30 yesterday morning, before I had gotten out of bed, I declared it to be the best Valentine's Day ever! My wonderful husband, Michael, is the icing on my cake!
I encourage you to reach for the Savior. No one loves you like He loves you. You are precious and honored in His sight and He loves you. (Isaiah 43:4).
Published on Tuesday, February 15, 2011 @ 9:06 AM CDT