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The Grand Illusion
Deep down, I know. I control nothing. Like the sun, I rose this morning because God said, "Wake up sleepy head."
I work and earn a living wage. Tithe. Pay the bills. Fund the savings account when I can. Shop a little when I can. And then I forget. I control nothing. Visible provision fosters the feeling that it's me who directs my fate. Awe . . . control. The grand illusion. I confess. I like the illusion.
When provision shines high in the sky I "cast my care upon the Lord" with ease. But what about seasons of financial overcast when my trust in God is tested in the midst of what I can't see. In the absence of sun-shiny-provision the doubt in my heart is exposed.
When fear and uncertainty arise. I confess. I confess because the tender mercies of Eternal Father Almighty God compel me to lean in and tell the truth. I tell the truth. He listens. I cry. He comforts. I wait (longer than I'd prefer). And then God commands provision to shine brightly once again.
I feel badly about the times I can't offer Him 100% trust. He is, after all, 100% trustworthy. I thank Him for loving me regardless. I thank Him for loving me enough to cloud the traditional ways my needs are met just long enough to remind me that He is my Source. When the channels change, the Source remains the same.
Faithful God is in control.
"Believe more deeply. Hold your face up to the light even though for the moment you do not see." --Bill Wilson
What are you weathering in life today? Does provision shine brightly, or are you in a season of overcast and uncertainty?
You are not alone,
Wendy
Published on Tuesday, August 18, 2015 @ 12:56 PM CDT
Trusting God in Your Darkest Hours
God, in His graciousness, seeks to bring light into dark places. Lately, He's been cleansing an area in my heart that has nothing to do with past sexual abuse. About three years ago, I received clear instruction from God to step out and be vulnerable before a loved one, who for reasonable reasons, I didn't fully trust. I was obedient. Initially all was well. Three months later the roof caved in. And I was quite sure it had caved in on my head. Suffice to say, I was hurt, angry, and confused.
Fast forward: Trust in my loved one was growing. But honestly, my trust in the Lord regarding this person, was not. Now, I love, love, love, the Lord. BUT I didn't know how to reconcile His asking me to step out with how it affected me. I felt like the God of the universe had thrown me under the bus. (Don't worry, if comments like this were cause to be struck by lightening, I would have been reduced to a heap of ashes long ago.)
I couldn't stop thinking about how "ripped-off" the whole incident made me feel. It was time to let it go. Time to get real with God.
I confessed my distrust in Him regarding this particular area in my life. And I quickly learned:
Published on Wednesday, January 28, 2015 @ 11:24 AM CDT